Dear beloved brothers, sister and friends:
Assalamu Alaikhum Wa Rahmato Allahi Wa Barakatoh;
I am sure, by now, everyone knows the court’s decision regarding our case. I want to share with you some of my thoughts. This may give some of you a chance to reflect on the issue while considering the implication of what has transpired in these last few days.
First of all, Allah (SWT) says at the end of Surat Yousef, Verse 110: “When the messengers lose hope (of their people) and come to think that they were treated as liars, Exactly at that time Our help reaches them, and those whom we will deliver into safety. But Our punishment will never be warded off those who are doers of evil (oppressors)“. What Allah is telling us in these verses is that when Allah’s messengers feel almost that it will be hopeless to preach and come to consider themselves branded as liars by an unbelieving world; that the breaking-point is then reached; that Allah’s help then comes swiftly to His men and they are delivered from persecution and danger, While the wrath of Allah overtakes evil doers, and nothing can ward it off.
Also Allah (SWT) says in Surat 16, Verse 42: “They are those who remained patient (in this world for the sake of Allah) and put their trust in their Lord Allah alone“.
Second, Allah (SWT) says in the Holy Quran in Surat 2, Verse 216: “It is possible that you may dislike a thing which is good for you, and you may love a thing which is bad for you. But Allah knows, and you do not know“. And in another verse Allah (SWT) says: “And you may dislike something and Allah put in it a lot of goodness“. Everyone perceives that the decision was bad. But that is just a perception and not a reality. Only Allah knows the reality. This is His Universe and He runs it as He sees fit. Also Allah (SWT) says in The Holy Quran: ”Do you think that you shall enter Paradise without such trials as came to those before you? they encountered suffering and adversity, and were shaken to the point that even the Prophet & those of faith who were with him cried: WHEN WILL COME THE HELP & VICTORY FROM ALLAH?“.
So, All this is good and no one should be angry, sad, or upset whatsoever. One great scholar said: “Whoever is afflicted with some type of calamity then Allah has put him through the path of Prophets, may prayers & salutation be upon them“. This is just one battle of the many battles we will fight toward achieving justice. We just lost a single battle but not the war of justice.
Third, I do not and will never apologize for feeding my Palestinian people: children, women and orphans and elders. Not now, not ever. It was my greatest honor to do so. It is a badge of honor that I will cherish forever. I wish I did more than what I did to help these needy families who were destitute & forgotten. I wish that I can dedicate my entire life and many more lives to alleviate the suffering of my Palestinian people and ease their suffering and help them live a decent & respectable life, so they can live with honor & dignity and can dream of a brighter future instead of the daily destruction & humiliation nightmare inflicted on them by the racist occupiers.
Fourth, What I am going through is nothing in comparison to what other Palestinians are going through. Here in this prison, I still eat three meals a day. I even pick and choose what part of each meal I choose to eat. I do not wake up every morning worried about being tortured. I have time to read and memorize Quran, learn and pray and sleep and do what I need to do to become a better Muslim to serve humanity.
Yes it is true that I am in prison, But I could be in some Israeli prison and be under constant torture and extremely difficult conditions where human rights violations are the norm and atrocities are committed with impunity against innocent people every day. So, overall, I am doing just fine. Yes it is true, I was put in solitary confinement for 28 days last month, but I turned that punishment into a great blessing and utilized it to memorize two full Jozas of Quran (40 pages) and lost extra 3 pounds where I am down to my ideal weight. I worked out every day & My health & spirit are the best they have ever been in the last 3 years of imprisonment. I am a 52 year old man but feel like a 26 years old man. My worship to Allah will never decrease, it will increase. My faith & reliance on Allah will never decrease, it will increase.
Fifth, We must realize that our persecution is nothing but an extension of the persecution of so many other Palestinians worldwide. This entire world looks at the Palestinians as a problem they wish it would just go away. Hoping that we just disappear and stop fighting for our rights and accept whatever charity is handed down to us, so the world can move on & be happy. Maybe they would like for the Palestinians to go to the moon (or other planets) or just vanish underground and stop their struggle for their holy homeland and their Allah’s (God) given right for a life of freedom, honor & dignity.
Sixth, What I am living through, right now, is what I used to read about the injustice happening to others, and always wondered how they were able to deal with it. It never crossed my mind that I will be treated so unjustly and that court after court in the land of freedom will rubber stamp this blatant injustice for political gain. But now I realized that faith is only confirmed or denied after being put to the test. It is easy to be faithful when the sailing is smooth, but how you react when you are sentenced to 20 years in jail for helping your own people. And with that, comes the possibility of being deprived of your family and children as they grow up, finish school, get married and end up missing so many of their life’s milestones. How you react to that determines your true faith or fake.
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